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Friday, February 13, 2015

Are you a true Nigerian?

Black American!
My narrowed eyes scanned the crowded room, eventually spotting the voice and its owner.  Why was this man grinning at me like that?  I thought to myself, slightly irked.  The closer I approached, the more his grin broadened.  The apples of his oily cheeks caught the harsh glare of the fluorescent lit room.  He was flanked by two women; one who mirrored his bright demeanor and another who seemed to eye me, warily.
"Black.  American." 
 The man emphatically declared, once I reached his booth.  He looked impressed with his assertion.  "Igbo."  I stated, smiling and handing over my passport and plane ticket.  Simply put, I identify as Nigerian American, but it can get complicated depending on who's asking.  In trendier times, I'd would have said that I was a classic Afropolitan; ethnically Igbo, born in Alabama and raised between tucked away enclaves outside of Atlanta and Owerri.  My parents had named me Ijeoma, aptly marking the transitional periods our family moved through during the time.   

He flipped open the hard booklet and leaned over to share its contents with both of his colleagues, "Eh heeeh!  Ijeoooomaaaa!"
 He sort of sang my name, drawing it out so dramatically that I couldn't help but to laugh.  I knew where the man was headed with his outbursts.  The path had been previously charted by older conversations.  l'm proud to be Igbo.  Female.  Black.  I've identified with those themes throughout my adult life.  His colleague on the left, who'd formerly eyed my presence with suspicion, now offered me an unguarded smile.  Her disposition transformed with the articulation of my origin.  At that busy airport, as I was being jostled this way and that, I recounted similar moments when I'd experienced the same conversation.  It had come up once, during my first visit to Nigeria as an adult, and had reared its head with a vengeance, two Decembers ago.

"So, you're Nigerian?  Like, fully Nigerian?"
 These times, the question had been posed by a
Great Kinky Hair Christmas Affair attendee, a guy who I'd idly chatted with in the lobby of my hotel, and by a woman I'd sat beside on my plane ride home.

In the moments that I've given these curious occurrences thought, I've wondered if they were uniquely Nigerian expressions of the 'are you mixed?' trope, commonly trotted out throughout the Black diaspora.  How many times had I heard about these interactions?  What about the conversations I'd  personally witnessed where the question had been posed?  Never, had I thought that the question would ever be applied to me.  Was this the Nigerian equivalent?  Was there even any real significance that I was oddly especially confronted with the question, whenever my natural hair was worn in a swollen braid out?
Weeks before my trip home, thanks to an article I'd come across on Clutch Magazine, I'd submitted a saliva sample to 23andme.  The ancestry genetic testing company had sent out an appeal to African descendants, requesting DNA samples, in order to boost their understanding of genetic diversity in Africa.
After waiting with bated breath for two torturous weeks, I finally received my results and was a bit miffed with the findings.  


Lol.

I'm as African as one can get.  Of course.  But, I had been curious about my genetic background.  Where there any other ethnic groups, besides Igbo, that might have been hidden in my DNA?  
I wanted to know.  
After all, Africans traded, fought wars, fell in love, and moved about for millennia.
Perhaps, future improvements to the testing will list specific groups, or migration patterns within Africa (and not just out of the continent).  

Socially, attitudes change, albeit more slower than we'd like.  A few years ago phrases like 'good hair' and 'mixed hair' were absorbed with little question.  If they were challenged, it seemed as if the popular opinions were also the most ignorant and unaware ones.  They carried more weight. 
  Today, though those opinions certainly still exist, they exist in a world where the visibility of the diversity of natural hair, steadily continues to increase.  Today, those opinions are met with natural hair advocates who ARE aware and are unapologetic.

I think some Nigerians struggle to reconcile the notion that this 'Igbo babe from Owerri, Imo State, has hair like this'.

But again, times are changing.
I'm happy to be a part of it.

  Yes, oo I am Nigerian.  No, I'm not mixed.

11 comments:

  1. You are whatever you say you are! I am a black American but we found out on my mother's paternal side, my great-great grandmother was from present day Rwanda-Burundi! I don't care that I was born here, I am of that descent, I claim it, and of West African too, I'm sure. Lol. I say all this to say, I say that I am black or that I'm African American. I'm proud of the African descent and will never leave that out. No matter where we go or live, we are who we are. That's what I took away from this post and I like that message. :-)

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    1. I remember when you posted this on your IG Milan :-)

      Exactly! The labels may change because cultures and norms are so dynamic, but there's an indisputable fundamental truth that's constant.

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  2. Lol made me chuckle that you were miffed by the result. Idk why. I think because I share your curiosity about what is lurking under my DNA. However, unlike you, I don't think i'm planning to take a DNA test anytime soon because 1) I don't feel like I have enough information/trust to willfully participate and 2) I don't feel like they can give me the level of detail I'm looking for. I feel like I already know more about my DNA than their test can possibly reveal. In any case, this was a fun read :) thanks for sharing

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    1. Hey Kola!

      Thanks for reading, Girl.

      I took the test to contribute to the data bank for Blacks in the diaspora who were slave descendants to have more information towards their own origins.

      My personal reasons were to also see the tribal/ethnic group breakdown of my lineage. I was hoping for more info, but I guess at this time, I'll 'settle' for knowing that my forefathers for hundreds and hundreds of years were Igbo.

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  3. this is a beautifully written piece. great job, keep the igbo spirit alive

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  4. Interesting post. I am Canadian and my parents are Nigerian. I get the same sort of questions, or I am at least made to feel different. I think there is a marked difference between being raised in Nigeria vs. elsewhere. I don't think it's the natural hair, but your whole countenance.

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    1. Completely agree. We're culturally American/Canadian. Our sensibilities reflect that, even though we are also Nigerian.

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  5. Hi, Geri. I am starting my healthy natural journal after being an unhealthy natural now for two years. Anyway, I was looking for some blogs to follow, after growing a little exhausted by all the vlogs that I have been watching in the last month. I found yours, and it dawned on me that you are one of my 23andme matches! We have conversed, and we are definitely connected through a distant ancestor. I am just very excited to see we share an interest in something. Your hair is beautiful, as are you.

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    1. Sherese! Lol Girl I remember you, yes!!

      So funny!

      We have to do a better job of staying in touch boo :0)

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  6. Most definitely. I am following your vlog and blog. No, I am not stalking but supporting. :-)

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